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300 Writing Prompts: Self-Deception

Writer's picture: Kristina Elyse ButkeKristina Elyse Butke

A woman crosses her fingers behind her back. 300 WRITING PROMPTS: SELF-DECEPTION
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Name one thing you have lied to yourself about. Why did you do this?

When I was in college I started dating my very first boyfriend ever my senior year. I had liked him for years and when we got together I fell head over heels in love with him. Unfortunately he didn't turn out to be what I thought he was, and then my bipolar disorder really destroyed everything and I became thoroughly toxic.


Before it got worse, I told him I loved him, and he paused, and said "I love you, too." The way he said it, I knew he was just feeding me a line and that he wasn't telling me the truth (I think he did this not to hurt me), but when he left my apartment I danced through the house shouting "He loves me!" I immediately lied to myself and I did this because I didn't want to believe that my very strong (sometimes unhealthy) feelings weren't being reciprocated. I had waited so long to date him, and I just didn't want to be disappointed.


...There ended up being a lot of disappointment in that relationship. I still regret everything.


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